I tend to make everything more than it is. Sometimes thinking about everything thats going on can  be the worst for you! why not just sit back relax, take care of the most important first, than go down the list and check em all off. Im at the top of the list and am trying to get past the first step. From the looks of it, its not as easy as it seems! Actions do speak louder than words, and this is all a part of growing up. Just when I thought it was all going down stream into a ginormous waterfall of chaos, it all just came to a hault in me and Im still up stream and I am swimming away from the current, it just takes some practice. yupp. Life is good here in graceland.

ok so this is my first entry in almost a year. i havent been on here in so long but i need to write and this is what ill do. most blog entry's may sound negative on here because ill only write when im really upset and feel like i have no one else to go to.

Im so tired of a few people (im not naming names) i dont see how selfish people are and how self centered everybody is. i need a break from this world, and evertime i feel this way it just piles on more. Ill be working full time and going to school full time, i wont have much time for anything except to study and yes other people have done it and do this all the time, its something new for me and something thats stressing me out already and it hasnt even happened yet. im just tired of always lifting everyone else up and getting a smile out of them, i wish someone would take the time to ask me how i was doing and get a real smile. im so tired of being the "nice girl" im getting really irrated with everybody and they just all need to chill out. ugh, none of this writing crap out is even making me feel better. i hate growing up.